Yesterday I was at my friends house for our usual cooking thing and we ended up watching the 2006 revival of Stephen Sondheims show Company. If you haven’t seen this version than you have to go rent or buy it. It is absolutely amazing. Not only does it star one of my favorite actors Raul Esparza, but the production is incredible because not only is the cast able to sing and act, but they all had to play an instrument as well…including Raul.
Although the song Mary Me a Little from Company isn’t one of the best, it is one of my favorites. I don’t only love it because I’m down about being dumped the other week, but I absolutely love male ballads. The only reason I chose Mary Me a Little from Company instead of my very favorite Being Alive is that if I did Being Alive from Company today, I would have no voice left because I love to belt that song out like there is no tomorrow.
One of the things that I love most about Stephen Sondheim songs is that you can take them and put them into a million different contexts. Mary Me a Little is exactly one of those songs as well. You can speed it up and add in a happier voice and it becomes a fun and happy song. You can keep it slow and add in a few sad tones like Raul does and all of the sudden you have a ballad. I think that is one of the things that makes Stephen Sondheim so incredible. His songs and his shows are extremely versatile, and it seems like he puts himself into each one of them as well.
Mary Me a Little from Company is a gorgeous song that can help to show off anyone’s ability to act a song. You can use it to show expression in your face. You can change it and lower it or raise it to let everyone see your voice control, and you can either walk around a stage, stand still and let your arms, posture and voice express your emotions or just sing it however you want. That is why I love this song for auditions for smaller theatre groups that rely on solid acting instead of big budgets. Mary Me a Little from Company is an incredible song and Raul Esparza did an amazing job in the revival of the show.
So yesterday my b/f and I broke up. I wasn’t going to be dramatic and I still thought he was sweet, but when I was describing what had happened to my friends, I realized he is a complete (fill in your favorite negative term for a guy here). I was really upset and so I was looking for a good break up broadway song to post today, but instead I heard one that is extremely obnoxious if you are recently broken up. So instead of using a breaking up song, I figured I would use an absolutely obnoxious song called I’ll Try from Redhead. Before I go into why I’ll Try from Redhead is such an obnoxious song, I want to tell you why he ended up going from nice guy to (insert your favorite descriptive word here as well).
I was having a bad week at work. I started parting ways with one of my largest clients, I was already a bit depressed and one of the sort of cool things that I was going to get to do last weekend was get to meet the brand new US ambassador of India to the United States. After not getting a text in over a day, he finally texts me back and asks me to go for a hike on Sunday. So I texted back and said that would be great, even though I am completely not a nature person.
We meet in the morning and stop for breakfast at a fun bakery in Capitol Hill. He’s acting sort of sweet, sort of distant and then we get into his truck and start heading out to Calvert Cliffs State Park. In the car he starts testing me again and trying to either see if I’m “too gay” “not smart enough” etc… the usual bullsh*t that I didn’t think anything of until I actually realized what he was doing…which was the first time. But I ignored it like an idiot. One of the questions was what is the first thing that comes to mind when you hear “Hudson”. What he wanted to hear was river, but of course I said Jennifer. Then I went into how I hated her commercials on tv for Weight Watchers but she does look amazing.
Anyways, we finally get to the park after he gets done asking me questions and calling me extremely gay. It’s a nice change to be out of the truck at this point, but at the same time I was super happy just to be with him. We start walking down the red trail to the bay and he is actually being sweet. He made a couple of nice comments, he shared some fun facts about the plants and then when we passed this gorgeous area I asked for a picture and he refused then kept walking. He wouldn’t even take one of just me. Luckily I have an iPhone and I took it myself. Instead of getting upset with him, I caught up and we went down to the beach.
Once we were on the beach, we played with his dog, ate a couple of snacks and found fossils, sea shells and sharks’ teeth. It was an awesome day in a romantic place and we had a really good time. As we were getting ready to head back because I had to go to a work event and meet the Ambassador, we sat down to let the sand dry off our feet and as we were looking at the cliffs and enjoying each other’s company, he says I don’t want to date you. No reasons, no sadness and no emotion. It was a complete ahole move to make. Not only did he do it after I had a bad week, but he did it knowing we have an hour and a half drive back, I have a very important night starting in a few hours and he springs this on me. Then we get up and start walking back and he pretends like nothing is wrong. What he should have done was asked me to brunch or coffee and just done it there. Not made me head out to the park and waste an entire day falling more in love with him. Anyways, when I heard the song I’ll Try from Red Head today I instantly hated the two characters.
Not only do the two people singing keep talking about how they’ll try to do things for each other, but they also sing about how much they are in love. Not only is the song perfect for hating when you are going through a break up, but it is also obnoxious to hear any other time, unless you are just falling in love. I heard this song and absolutely hated it and if you are going through a break up, you’ll probably hate it too.
So if you couldn’t tell or if you read my other blogs you’ll know I’ve been in a relationship for the past few months. It’s kind of funny how you just click with someone and you can fall instantly in love with them. That’s sort of what happens to a few of the characters in Promises Promises which starred Kristin Chenoweth and Sean Hayes.
In Promises Promises Sean Hayes’s character falls in love with Kristin Chenoweth’s character. The problem is that Kristin’s character is already in love with someone who turns out to be the person that Sean needs to get a head in life. The other issue is that the guy she is in love with is married and has had multiple affairs. In one scene around Christmas time, Kristin says she wants or needs more, instead of giving her more, he gives her money. Although the intent was good because he wanted to give her a nice holiday present, it also made her feel like a whore. The other twist is that the place they were using to hookup was Sean’s apartment and he had no clue she was the girl that the guy was hooking up with; until he finds her almost dead in his bedroom when she tried to kill herself by taking a ton of pills.
We’ve all had those moments when we realize that the person we love doesn’t love us back as much. Sometimes the person actually does love you as much as you love them, but if they can’t show it to you or they aren’t ready to love you enough yet because they are focused on other things like rock collections, their dog or a possessive mother, you just sometimes have to move on to protect your own heart. It hurts to do it because you really love the person, but sometimes you need to. You can always hope that if the person is the right one, eventually when they are ready you may be ready for them again as well. I have a friend who had an ex boyfriend that had a falling out. About twenty years later they met again, fell in love and last summer they got married. You never know, if the person is the right one, you may end up with them eventually. In Promises Promises, Kristen tries to kill herself. Although that is a bit dramatic, Sean does save her and the song I’ll Never Fall In Love Again from Promises Promises is the song they sing together after she comes to it in the morning.
Although I didn’t try and kill myself and I haven’t broken up with my partner, the personality differences, lack of personality and hi not being ready to be in a relationship yet could end up ending our relationship. I know how Kristen’s character felt and sometimes you have to end your relationship, even though you don’t want to, because the other person isn’t ready for you yet. It can be hard to do but sometimes you need to do it to stop yourself from feeling hurt and alone all the time. In the show she comes to it with Sean and they sing I’ll Never Fall In Love Again on a guitar together, but in real life you probably won’t get to do that. Instead you should try to find something to take your mind off of it or have a friend over.
Today I’m heading to my friends house to use his new smoker. He had never used it before, so we are breaking it in, having drinks and cooking all day. That is our version of the song I’ll Never Fall In Love Again from Promises Promises. He’ll help me feel better and the two of us will have a fun day. Friends are amazing and I know he reads this blog so thank you ahead of time and see you in a while. =0). If you are currently in a relationship and your partner isn’t showing you the same emotions back, you should talk to him or her. If it gets worse and you always feel alone, you may need to think about if they are ready and find your own version of the song. Breaking up with someone you love is very hard to do, but you also need to do what is right for you. There are plenty of other people out there and you may eventually meet the person again when they are ready and even fall in love and get married then. I’ll Never Fall In Love Again from Promises Promises is one of my favorite songs and I love the version that they did when it was on Broadway. Thank you again for reading and I hope you all have a great weekend. Here is I’ll Never Fall In Love Again from Promises Promises.
If there is one composer and song writer that I love it is Stephen Sondheim. Not only does he completely right the perfect music for any mood, but instead of putting in the song I wanted to from Promises Promises about the issues I am having with my relationship, I randomly heard You Could Drive a Person Crazy from Company. Although You Could Drive a Person Crazy from the musical Company isn’t anywhere near the emotions I was feeling, it completely cheered me back up and got me smiling. Because of that I decided to post it instead of a sad song about relationships and love and be in a really good mood.
You could drive a person crazy from Company is one of my favorite showtunes about dating. Not only do the three ladies singing teach you what not to do, but they literally help you drive the person you love and yourselves crazy. They cover just about every situation and every pet peeve you could have with a relationship. One of my favorite lines that they sing is “Bobby is my hobby and I’m giving him up!”.
Even if you aren’t giving up your partner, sometimes you need to know when it is time not to push him or her into things or changing or in this case, bugging your friend to keep dating. If they aren’t ready to date or really don’t want to do something, sometimes you need to back off. If you are in the relationship and you want to move faster but they need to go slower, sometimes you need to take a step back and let them catch up. The only problem with that is that by the time they are ready, you may be ready to move on because they took to long. That is what could be happening with my relationship right now. I’m ready to move forward fast, but he wants to go slow and won’t give me solid answers. He’s also giving me mixed messages. Unfortunately the line “Bobby is my hobby and I’m giving him up” is starting to become what I think may happen. My hobby was loving him and falling for him, but if he can’t catch up I can’t deal with the mixed messages and will need to give him up. I don’t want to and will definitely end up upset about it, but there is no point in giving your heart to someone who isn’t ready to give theirs back. I honestly think I love him, but if he isn’t ready then he isn’t and I need to move on. I can’t ruin my life over him.
You could drive a person crazy from Company actually has another meaning. By not trying to help the other person and being the scared one who wants to take it slow, you could end up being the one who ends up driving the other person crazy. What’s even worse is that you won’t even know it. Unfortunately that is what is happening in my relationship right now. He has driven me crazy and now I ended up feeling sad, alone and depressed. Luckily I know that this isn’t the right thing to do and I am going to address it. If it doesn’t turn out the way I hope it will, then I am ready to break up. Hopefully it does work out, but if it doesn’t I’m prepared to get over the break up. Breaking up isn’t easy, but its better than being miserable waiting for the other person who may never come around. I guess that is why I really like the song You could drive a person crazy from Company so much. It actually has a ton of different meanings.
So before people start bitching about me taking another song out of context of the show, when you listen to a song and haven’t seen a show then you can put whatever meeting you want to it. You can also create your own version of how the song can be used. For me, Big Ass Rock is one of those songs. If you haven’t seen the Full Monty, or even if you have, you can easily place Big Ass Rock from The Full Monty into a situation about singing about co-workers who pretend to be your friend but stab you in the back.
We’ve all been around those people that use you, pretend to be your friend and the minute you turn your back they are there to stab a knife into it. You know, the one who will always be there to tighten to rope around your neck, rub salt into a wound and after they are finished pretend like they did nothing wrong. Not only do these people have no souls, but they are absolutely horrible and unfortunately exist just about everywhere. I had the unfortunate experience of dealing with two of these people at my last real job before I went out on my own.
Not only did I know them for years before and back then I absolutely thought the world of them, but I was also trusting and completely naive. Unfortunately I let them walk all over me and although I knew to stand up for myself, I sort of wanted out of that company.
Not only was the company a bad one to work for, but I hated being there anyways. Some of the people were great, but I was homesick for Washington DC and the company had some serious issues. If I had really wanted to keep that job, I would have stood up for myself and not let them walk all over me. At the time I was confident but for some reason backed down. Now I know it was because I hated working there, but at the same time I shouldn’t have let them walk all over me. When I was in NYC a couple of weeks ago I ended up running into them. When they came up to me at a party at the Kimberly Hotel Penthouse they walked over and pretended like they mattered. Apparently they thought I was a push over. Not only did they not get a hello or any form of attention when they walked up, but the people I was with laughed them away. Apparently I’m not the only one they’ve screwed over.
When I heard the song Big Ass Rock today on Sirius XM it completely made me think of those two and how horrible some people are. The song Big Ass Rock from the Full Monty can completely be about one of those people in your workplace that acts like a friend but stabs you in the back. The song in the show isn’t about that, but if you can take it out of the context of the show, it can completely be about people who act like they’re your friends but will stab you in the back the minute it will benefit them.